Please don't touch my family

My grandfather had a fall. I rushed straight to Changi General Hospital after school, where he was still at A&E. My mom was already there, and she stuck an "A&E Visitor" sticker onto my shirt. All kinds of thoughts ran through my mind, from "he gave me my name" to "why are You doing this to me?"

My dad was there, and my grandfather was fine apart from the constant shivering. He's 84 years old, but I won't accept it if he goes too soon. At the moment, and maybe even til now, I hated God for giving our family a new member and then threatening the life of another.

On the same day, my niece was sent to the KK Hospital, 2 days after she was sent home. She had some problems with her health, I don't know how to explain it really... I didn't ask what was wrong with her, I just had to see her.

We weren't allowed to see her yet, not until yesterday. Even that was just for a few minutes of my mom holding her, all of us making a fuss of her mouth, me rubbing her cheek. She didn't even have her name yet and already a problem had came to. I have so much to say to her even though she's only a week old.

Today, after a night at the hospital by my grandfather's side, I got home at Pasir Ris to take a nap. I awoke to my grandmother calling me, telling me one of our cats had been sent to the hospital. 

I was getting sick of that word. Hospital. I kept asking God why's He sending everyone there.

Our youngest kitty has a problem with his buah pinggang, and also has kencing manis. Such human problems, It explained why he'd been going to his litterbox so much recently. 

My aunt sent me a picture of him, looking so miserable with a cone around his neck and his lower body shaved of all his fur. A tub filled with blood sat at his butt, and I remembered Grandma mentioning how he'd peed a lot of blood.

So much chaos in a week. 

It's too much. 

Dear God, can You not touch my family anymore?

Be it the niece who has changed my brother's life,

the grandfather who gave me my name,

the cat who always cried for my attention

please don't touch my family anymore.

I'd go through all the pain and stress of my own problems again and again, 

be it school or friendships or love

You can take my life too

if You would just leave my family alone.