they do upset me from time to time. but sometimes they make me happy being in their company too.
i've been away for a week now. i only went there to get my uniform before my practical exam on Thursday, and then to change and left again when i got back afterwards. i never talked to anyone of them.
a large part of me believes so that none of them are affected by my absence.
today started off horrible. i woke up to a throbbing headache and it was raining outside. it still is right now, many hours after i woke up. i felt so horrible and i couldn't stop crying.
maybe i'm just homesick.
then again, once that word is mentioned, a part of me asks, is that really a place you would call 'home'?
i hate days like these where i could just sit in a corner and cry for no reason.
when i'm here, i want to go back to Pasir Ris. but when i'm there, all i want is to come back here. when i'm in school, i want so badly to get the hell out of there, but when i'm elsewhere i want to go back to that classroom.
everywhere i go, i always want to go somewhere else, don't i? a little secret. the only place where i've never wanted to be somewhere else, was in his embrace.
it's so stupid how i always suck you in when i'm talking about the home and family issues. maybe cause you were once all of those when i had nobody else.
if you were a Pokemon you'd be a dark-type. or if we're in the Pokemon world and you had a type specialty, then it'd be Dark. an Umbreon fits you just perfectly. o gosh i'm gonna draw that once i'm done with my exams.
that aside... i am done here. i have to return to that place, latest by tonight. see you Pasir Ris people soon.
the Blue is just the flow of the water like a Vaporeon;
the Red is just the burning of fire like a Flareon.
the Pink is the playing of the mind like an Espeon;
but you, the Black, are the beauty of the moon like an Umbreon.
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