train /treɪn/: MY WIND CHIMES, DAMMIT.

day by day, the madness just drives me insane. today my craziness was driven by my broken wind chimes.

i had told my brother to close the windows for me, and when he does, he somehow knocks the wind chimes off and they shatter to pieces. i hear that horrible sound from outside, and immediately rush into my room, yelling "What the fuck was that!?"

the sound of the broken jagged pieces sliding along one another is just too painful, and my brother's scared face does nothing but fuel my own fear. my wind chimes! my wind chimes from Langkawi...!

i stare at the pieces, not knowing what to say. i want to scream, but i know that will make things worse, because our older brother will come out of his room and add in his own tantrum in reaction to the noise. i decide to keep quiet, although i am boiling on the inside.

hear that shatter? it's not the wind chimes. it's my heart.

that's one thing that made me sad.

the other thing was when i was walking in EM while all the shops were closing. i caught sight of, guess what?

KITTENS. GOD-DAMN MOFO KITTENS. it's been a while since i saw any at EM. and dammit! two of them were white!!! pure white, apart from the brown ears. my goodness!!!

i stood there watching them from over the railings, occasionally calling out to them and smiling when they looked at me.

then i started crying. what's new. i noticed the kittens looking at me each time i sniffed, and then they would just stare at me. that drove me crazy. the more i looked at them the more i really, really wanted a kitten.

that's two.

now i'm trying to fix the pieces of the wind chime together. i ended up getting super glue on my hands, and now my fingers hurt when i bend them.