I should have taken his hand.

ain't in school, was so demotivated with what happened last night. bawled my eyes out, was trying so hard to hold the tears in but damn.

so here i am in the house, alone as always. do i have any plans? i should probably get something to eat, although as always i don't have much appetite. mee soto would be nice though.

i need to have interaction with a human now. and call me picky if you like, but i only want certain humans to interact with, not just anyone.

...granny should be on her way to KL by now. i'd wanted to follow, too. i guess my not going to school is a sort of rebellion against that.

if this is how i react to someone who wasn't so close to me, how would i react if it's someone who is?

i would have made the effort to take his hand had i known it would be the last time i'd see him.