upset.

and now i am going to blog about my own feelings.

i'm at a loss as to what to do.

i am upset.

i've written in my diary, i've watched aeroplanes, i've walked in the blazing sun, i've petted two stray cats i met along the way. what more can i do to bring away this negativity in my heart?

right. interaction.

no! i hate humans. the only one i still dare, and want, to talk with is the foster brother. nobody else. but he's not that well himself.

what should i do??? i dont know what to do. i dont know what to do. i want to talk to my foster brother. i need to. this agony is strong, not even writing could make me feel better.

what should i do? what should i do??? where is he? sigh. just what is the problem eating away the inside of me this time? and why is it so strong this time?