the symbol of my immaturity.

they say when someone shows their anger or sadness, they are asking for attention. i beg to differ; you see, if i were to be sad, and yet i smile, it'll be considered lying. and the last time i checked, i hear society hates liars.
just stating.

had physics today, and it was alright. manageable. i dont know why though, but i'd been feeling pissed off for no reason through out my journey home. and it didnt help that the lift door closed on me, hitting my shoulders when i was walking in.

had fallen asleep in my contacts again, thankfully they hadnt gotten stuck or any shit like that. hadnt gone out on a solitary escapade or hung out with the bestie. he had work to do, although i was hoping we could meet to vent the frustrations.

he still hadn't brought me to watch waves.i wonder if he's free tomorrow.

tomorrow's the last paper! i shall go out to celebrate afterwards. milk tea after milk tea after milk tea, and page after page after page of words in glistening black ink. that's such a beautiful combination.

i've noticed some changes in my older bro. somehow, he's a lot more... caring? not towards me though, unfortunately. but to dad. i heard him talking to my granny that he was the one who told dad not to work today, because dad's unwell. something like that.

and i'm like; "since when are you so filial, you douche?"

but then i'm like oy. don't doubt somebody's sincerity. if you've always wanted someone to change for the better, don't be so freaked out when one day he does.

well, i guess i'll see how further he develops. i hope his maturity comes a'knocking very soon too. i need that. his parents need that. he needs that.

and i need mine too. have i told you guys, i treat the last baby tooth of mine as a symbol of my immaturity. it's constantly shaking, and each day i feel like it's getting closer to dropping off. once it's out, i'll do my best to be, well. less immature.

i'll prove to myself that i can be mature in terms of characteristics as well and not just the mind. hmph. you shall see, you stupid douchebag. in the meantime, i shall continue running towards pigeons when no one is looking.

i've got a pimple on my left cheek!

aaahhh i need more tees from MOC.