Relief.

had sent her off at the airport today. i dont know if it had been expected or not, but i hadnt had any tears. and neither had she.

i feel so relieved.

that aside, i accidentally cut my thumb this morning. there was so much blood, even 5 pieces of blood-soaked tissues hadn't been enough to stop the bleeding. admittedly, i liked the sight of all that blood. it's a sign of life, and death, at the same time.

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i see you. i see him. at a mere glance, i can immediately tell who's who.

you see me, but he doesn't. you slowly divert your eyes from me to him. you know what he'd done to me more than three months ago, but he doesn't know what you've done to me barely three nights ago. he looks at you and smiles, and you return the gesture.


as soon as he turns away, you're looking at him with remorse in your eyes.