she is me. i am her. who is she? who am i ?

i'm wondering who else from clique reads my blog. i know asleah knows my link, but i only know siying really reads it. just thought i'd say this, but they should know my link. they should read what i wrote, abt my wanting to leave them. just saying.

so i heard tht some ppl have been looking for me the past 2 weeks. and some others have been talking abt me, like syazie and nic and tim.

i'm scared. i dont know what to do. i dont want to talk anymore. i dont want to see anymore. my head is banging. gastric flu acts up at the most randomest of moments.

tht one person i've always relied on is not here to comfort me. i dont know what else to do. i guess i'm not independent at all. if he just a boy, then i'm just a girl who is in love with tht boy.

i dont know. sometimes i'm so damn positive, at other times i wanna break down and just curl up and die. this mind of mine has always been so unpredictable . or maybe i've just been so damn unsure of myself.

i hate him, yet i love him. tht makes me hate him, but i still love him. my mind is gg crazy, i'm gg insane.

the cat has looked up at the tree, and she's seen what she wanted. she circles around the tree first, just looking up. her owner calls out to her, and she does regard the owner, but she goes back to looking up at the tree right aft.

she's slowly circling the tree. picking up pace. and then she runs around the tree. runs in smaller circles around the tree, she's gg insane. the cat is chasing her own tail, again and again, not looking anywhere but up the tree.