damn girl .

heidiho, guess what? i seriously miss the three of them right now. altho we've only gone out just twice, when it's all 4 of us, gg out with them is like the only thing tht can make me really happy right now. feels like ive been deprived of them for years.

how was my day you ask? it was boring. i spent the whole day at home, and i was so damn restless sia. i kept feeling like i had smth to do (which i most probs have, eg homework), but it's like i had no energy or strength to even get up from bed.

wrote a lot in diary tho. it's really like the one tht i tell the most things to. of course, the notebook varies every time so it's not really one, but yeah, you get what i mean.

but... the thing abt the most beautiful woman on earth, i rarely talk abt it even in my diaries. i'm like used to not talking abt it much. so if you were to read thru all my diaries, i rarely talk abt it actually . maybe just once in a blue moon, but never aft every attack. just thought i'd say this .

anyhoos, i think we have got a new reader by the name of timothy. idk, he knows my blog address, and he asked for the new one, but whether he reads it or not i do not know.

seems like im a good influence with all this diary writing, cause he's even got his own diary now. he started writing aft our study session with siying, which was on the 10th. we shall see if he stays commited, which i hope he does cause his notebook is a really f a t one. it'll be a pity if he doesnt put it to good use.

tmrw i shall sing straitjacket feeling . yesterday was hell but today i'm fine without you. haix, i really miss those three. the way they all comforted me . irshad with the usual stuff, siying with the annoying/irritating me, timothy with the tryna make me laugh. hehe. yeahh... i guess those three are really the ones who can really make me happy right now .

i'm restless .

a voice has been telling me to go to the doc. i told it to shut up, but it told me tht the only way to make it shut up is to go to the doc. so, the voice is still ringing away in my head right now .

i've decided on my art topic, chose the first one. and ive gotten my three ideas, so all tht's left is to write ms chua my concept brief. it's a really simple topic but hopefully with my creativity i'd be able to complicate it in order to score marks.

i aimed an A2 for my n level art, but sadly i only got a 3. my target for o levels shall be a 2 as well, and imma work really hard to meet with it. and for my maths too, which target is a 2 too.

have i told you? my aunt (mom's sis) and uncle is gonna get me a cammie :3 for my videography stuff, and then aft o levels, they would be upgrading my comp to a macbook. and then my uncle gonna get me some other videography equipment.

AND, my aunt wants me to get my driver's license as soon as i turn 18, and she's gonna get me a car too. O: hopefully irshad would be with me til then, and then we could all go car-browsing tgt. (tht was his suggestion :3)

mmhmm.... better study really hard then. what are my targets for Os you ask?

subject//my target for Ns//what i got for Ns//my target for Os
english//A1//A1//A1
malay//A2//A2//A1
maths//A1//B3//A2
science//A2//A2//A1
humans//B4//B3//A2
art//A2//B3//A2

yes, my targets are waiting for me. i shall meet them there and not halfway, never halfway. if tht's where i planned to meet them, i shall meet them there. ok, done abt tht, look at this.



wanna go there? great! i shall grant you your wish.

oh yeah, earlier on i suddenly had this crazy idea for a 2011 cohort party. just imagine! the area where 4/2 had chalet at tht time, and then one class takes one chalet. cool kan? 4/2 would be between 4/1 and 4/3 of course :3

wow, tht'd be awesome sia. O: yeahh, i'll have to work really hard for tht to happen.

why do i feel so alone? where are siying and irshad? i wonder if they're thinking of me. why does one day without them feels so much like ive not seen them for years? OHHHHH kkkk i know why alr. shall write it in my diary.

anyhoos, i can always see siying, and tim , in sch . but irshad? he's gonna be a real busy man, cause he has cca now. yeah, it does sound weird hearing him having a cca, cause all the years ive known him he has never said oh i cant, i have cca. aint used to it at all.

but o well, all tht was like, what? 2009, 2010? it's 2012 alr. and i'm taking my o levels too. we're both gonna be real busy. we'll see each other less and less and not as much as now, altho, i do hope i can see him at least one a week...

oh, oh, oh. look at this. cute right? before and after.




i wanna do some crazy firetruck shit.