tears of joy.

a 5 mins nap became 14 new messages and 3 missed calls. fell asleep for way too long and irshad spammed me, trying to wake me up. i got pissed at myself but he kept smiling to himself so i couldnt help but feel happy as well.

breakwater/water breaker? sat at one riiiight at the end (well almost) and talked as always. yes, i really really enjoy talking with him. his words, whatever he says, always have me thinking.

when it got darker, we kept each other close, under the sky. although there were clouds, the moon was still as bright as ever and there were aeroplane lights flashing in the distance. only could hear the waves and his heartbeat. oh cool, waves and his heartbeat. aquaheartbeat la sia! k lame.

as it got later and later, we started talking abt his coming back. he said he left twice, he came back twice, but this time he aint gonna leave. and then he embraced me again, and i started crying.

bloody hell, i really cried sia! my shoulders were shaking and my throat hurt. irshad was like, "tears of joy?" i nodded my head off but i was still crying my eyeballs off =.= all the while, i was just repeating to myself, "he came back. he came back. he came back."

i refused to look at shad's face but in the end he managed to kiss me. kinda embarrassing when he used his hand to wipe the snot off from under my nose -_-

aaahhhh pure bliss. tht was the most amazing night of my life. i cried for you. in front of you. i've never done both of tht at once for a guy before! i must admit, i enjoyed the crying. tears of joy indeed ! i'm so glad you came back..

i dont think i ever stopped loving you. even when i was with khairul , i still had feelings for you, most probz. i did love him, but probably never as much as i loved you all along. SOB! BLOODY HELL! YOU REALLY CAME BACK SIA! YOU'RE REALLY MINE NOW!!!! SOB!!!! AAAHH!!! ALHAMDULLILAH!! YOU CAME BACK.....!!!!

i love you so much. i love you... irshad, i love you so damn much... i'm glad you came back... T.T

oh, and your brownies are damn addicting. imma bake you some in return very very soon!