a dream.

slept thru the afternoon and evening. as always, i dreamt.

it's abt this girl. who's like living in a room without walls. a house without walls. two guys wanted to build walls for her. in this dream, i was one of the guys. the taller one.

well anyhoos, the other guy was sort of my travelling companion and we just bumped into tht girl in one of the places tht we were walking thru. i dont remember what she was doing when we first saw her, but the companion and i saw her always staring at her house whenever she came to talk to us.

when she walked away, companion and i decided to build walls for her house.

we found some walls, idk what the material was... but it must have been something fragile cos i told companion (we shall just call him C) not to let it drop cos it'll break. of course, he did break a wall at one point, but i dont rmb my response to tht.

while we were transporting the walls, C found this piece of glass, which had letters on them. it looked like it belonged to another piece of glass tht was on one of the walls, but another piece was still missing when i placed the existing 2 pieces tgt. get it?

well anyway, we were almost done with the walls, C was putting up the last one when the girl came back. she saw her house, got this wide-eyed look on her face and then she started screaming.

she came towards her house, touched the walls of her house. i was watching her fingers run over the pieces of glass tht had letters. and then she said, "i dont believe tht strangers like you would help me. even my father and my scary mommy wont do this for me."

and then she looked up, at us, and continued, "i have three sides to me, only they have seen this third side of mine. tht is why they dont accept me as their child." and then she started crying, these tears just flowed down her face.

at tht point of time i thought to myself, tht the three pieces of glass represented those 3 split personalities, and the letters made up her name. and then i thought of the words 'scary mommy'.

i woke up aft tht, and i couldnt stop crying. was crying them eyeballs out while texting irshad. i know what the dream means, i know what its tryna say. but idk why its saying all tht to me.

firetrucked...