easier said than done

run away from home? really?

you're a girl. a young girl. one who knows very little because the brother who's been teaching you how to fight left you halfway. what do u know?

one who's very weak, one whose health is weak, and whose backbone is fragile. really, what do u know? ur glare is as cold as ice. but ur self-defence melts so quickly. ....no, self defence shouldnt even melt. nobody must know ur weaknesses... no names must be mentioned to allow ur heart to give way...

ok, whatever.
dont ever run away from home. regardless of whether ur a girl or a boy. home is the safest place, no matter where u live; which area, or a bungalow or a flat... the place where you've had ur comfort moments the most. THT is the safest.

so right now, im angry with my MOM. she gave me a light bulb last month, and it's sitting at the edge of my desk, staring right at me. im tempted to throw it into the dustbin in HER ROOM, along with all the birthday cards, anklets and tees she gave me. but then again, i thought.. if i were to get rid of all the things she's given me, i might as well suicide too.

mothers gave us our lives.

mothers sacrifice alot for us. they CHOSE to have you, tht is alr one. their beauty, their leisure time, their career... yeah, all tht. the worst thing a child could ever say to her mother is, "i didnt ask u to give birth to me!"

.................mothers have feelings too.

if they nag, scold, and do all those small little normal things tht u find annoying, u should be grateful tht her presence is there for you to regard. some kids dont even have mothers... some teenagers took so long to rebuild the relationship with their mothers, only to bump into an unfortunate event whereby their mother passes away...

i think the only lie ur mom ever told you was when she comforted you with the word 'forever'... no matter how comforting it is, it's an irrevocable lie.

the thin shoulder tht u pushed so hard when in an arguement... she's ur mother. she's fragile. she's old. most of all, she aint gonna be here for much longer... u know she's here right now. she will be, until she dies. u should make her happy so she can leave in peace...

if u never got along with her, the least u could do is cry by her deathbed. she'll be so happy tht the child who's hated her all along, finally regarded her as their mother. the shine in tht last smile may make u cry endless tears, but the good thing is tht ur mother has left with happiness and peace in her mind...

if ur mom aint ur biological one, it's great tht she was willing to become the family tht u are a part of. she chose to take care of you. if u never accepted her, she accepted you and was trying very hard ...

ok, think ive said enough.

every mother is special. regardless of age, race, character. love your mom.
and on the note,

i love my mother.
(even though she just Came into my room to find trouble with me)